Okay, so FINALLY I decided to settle my poly enrollment papers. Too many papers! I went through one by one, and left the rest to my parents. Then the online thing and the payment. Did all of that, got pissed off because I still had to pay a thousand plus because god knows why even though i already selected PSEA I still had to pay and extra $1100.
So yes. I finished all of that (after much assurance from my parents to just pay the thousand plus) and proceeded with watching videos and other what not. Criminal Minds hehe Reid started playing the piano ^_^ ANYWAY.
I decided to check my DAE status application just for fun, I expected it to still be under consideration because the person incharge emailed me after I applied that the results will be out from early March to Mid April.
SEKALI.
Status; Successful
APE LAGI AKU PANIC AH! I JUST PAYED FOR NYP'S SEMESTER BECAUSE I EXPECTED THE RESULTS TO BE OUT AFTER MY NYP ENROLLMENT WAS DUE! AND NOW THIS POPS OUT!
& I really don't know what to do.
Social sciences is a very humble course, about helping other people and stuff, but the job scope isn't that wide.. I'm scared that I won't get like, a job or land in a university after getting the diploma. Plus, social work, most of the organizations are non-profit..
Law on the other hand has a wide scope but I'm worried if the job requires me to defend bad people or something, or subahat. I know I can become something else OTHER than a lawyer but I'm not so sure now.
Tbh, before my appeal results, I solat istikarah and dreamt that I got into law, but then irl i got accepted into social sciences. Now, I'm accepted into law also :/
It's after midnight and I feel like waking my mum up T___T but I know what she'll say, its all up to me. Plus I already payed so they'll most probably support SS. But if they do let me choose, and if I really have bad luck with these kind of situations and we can't get a refund, and we waste about a thousand plus dollars because I chose law, I think I'll die of guilt.
Some more Dad kept reassuring me its okay and that they already set aside money for my education so it wont matter if we have to pay extra because of the psea thing. i was so worked up. I will feel so guilty if all that money is wasted. Could be saved for buying furniture for the new house sia. Like an aircon in my room. I'm happy if my room consisted of a mattress and aircon. No table no chair as long as got aircon.
Why do I always have the luxury of choosing? Can't everything just be set in stone and layed out in front of me so I can just follow? I really DESPISE choosing. I'll be too busy setting out the advantages and disadvantages and eventually come to a conclusion that both are equal and get so distressed i feel like peeing every other minute and ripping my precious hair off.
I HATE BEING BORN IN OCTOBER. I HATE BEING A LIBRAN.
Librans are so fixated in finding equality that eventually leads to indecisiveness.
OKAY PEOPLE READING THIS POST.
Please either sms me or tweet me or fb me your opinions please. Unfortunately, Librans ALSO consider GREATLY people's opinions more than their own, so yeah.
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