042; Ramadhan Mubarak.

A lot of things has been going on, and it has.. taken a lot out of me to perservere. Really. Especially today, if I hadn't read all those replies.. I swear I would have done something stupid. For those of you who follow me on twitter you'd know.

I was this close to doing something stupid, really. I was halfway through, even. And as a result, my hands and knees are bruised. Old habits die hard. I hope my head isn't bruised too. Because I might have done something to it.. Okay I did do something to it. But I feel fine now.

Physically anyway. Emotionally.. I'm still trying. It's a pity I can't pray or read the Quran because it's that time of the month or I'd feel much better but.. hah.

I guess my expectations of everything are too.. high I guess. Maybe I shouldn't expect anything out of anyone at all. So that I won't feel this shitty when my expectations and reality don't match. But I have to have some sort of vague impression of what a figurative person is expected to be like right? Or not? I don't know.

Sometimes I wish someone would knock me down with a car and then I'll lose all my memories so that I can have a chance to restart my life. No wait, sometimes I feel like standing in front of a moving car to do that. But I'll just have to pick myself up. And push myself forward. On my own two feet.

I'm perservering. And I hope, in the future, I'll be able to look back and say that I perservered. It'll take a lot out of me to be patient and endure all these shit but I really hope I'll have the strength to pick myself up and move on.

& For the first time I'll end a post with a greeting!

ASSALAMUALAIKUM RAMADHAN!

Bulan dimana nafas kita menjadi Tasbih, Tidur kita menjadi Ibadah, Amal kita Diterima dan Do'a kita di Ijabah.

041; short update again

Yes yes short update. Exams coming up plus some presentations. Prepared for some, some not :/ I haven't even started revising for exams! I think after I'm finished with preparation for Ethics I'll start studying Psychology. Exam timetable is out and I guess it's okay. Thank goodness Psych is all MCQ if not it's like Geography but 20 more topics.





I'm quite worried if I'll have time to study for exams or not since I've been preoccupied with preparing for counselling ica 2 also. I usually do extensive research for counselling icas cos there's no exam for it, like written ones and some more I think we messed up on the presentation so I have to do well for this second ica to make up for it.





Social work presentation is going well too, finishing some up tmr (ON MY BELOVED TUESDAY WHEN I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO COME TO SCHOOL BUT UNFORTUNATELY HAVE TO), psychology presentation I'm prepared for it, Sociology, not prepared at all lol.





But yeah, everything has been going well. Ramadan coming up soon, can't wait :D Then exams, then HOLIDAY! Raya during the holidays is the best!





What else is up? Nothing much ah. Normal stuff, watched harry potter and cried from the half mark onwards, other presentations, preparation for nurses' day stuff yada yada yada. Thank goodness I chose not to involve myself with much ccas. I know it's important for university and all that but I simply don't have the time. And I don't want to make time for ccas cos I want to focus more on studies. Maybe I'll give the Community Service CCA guy another email though.. Haiyo poly is becoming more stressful by the minute. But I'm thankful for the oppurtunity to become a better person through this course. Like Jim said, results don't matter :)





Alright, it's quite late and I need my beauty sleep. Hehe. Good night everyone. Have a nice day ahead!

040; short update

I shouldn't.... Right? Yeah I shouldn't.

Hallo! Am in class rn. School ended already but I'm staying back to finish up some projects.. & idk, lepak or something. Since the class is open anyway and there are a bunch of people staying back too for projects.

FASTING TODAY! If I can tahan for today, 2 more days to pay back, then can chill! Actually cannot lah, with projects icas exams soon. Thank god i didn't join any ccas, at least can spend more time at home.

Yesterday was quite an experience. We went to Sengkang to do project, the morning was spent finishing up on some other project, and in the afternoon we started on our survey for Sengkang West, for the social work module.

Like total foreigners, we had to ask around to get around lolol had no idea which buses to take etc, so unprepared. After giving Anchorvale CC a visit, we got super lost! We passed a river, a park (SCORCHING HOT OMG), a highway. We were resting at the highway, of all the places, we weren't really sure which direction to go, wanted to take a cab but we had 5 people in total. The place was really ulu and so little cars passed by. Eventually we got help from a guy, and ended up at some bus stop, but then got approached by the same guy who showed us where to go haha If we had taken the bus we'd end up MORE lost, so yes. THANK YOU.

So we passed a field, walked some more, finally got to Sengkang West =__= Did the surveys etc my face was so red already from the heat and hk said my lips were getting pale so I took care of the bags while they went to survey people.

I started observing my surroundings, saw this uncle who drank 2 bottles of beer and was stumbling otw home even though it was still quite early in the evening. Waited. Waited. And omg whatever lah so long my story, we met up again, discussed some stuffs, went home, camwhored in the lrt etc etc.

Hafizah's open house this Saturday. Her house happens to be where we went, Sengkang West lolol and I only realized like so late. I think after that we'll be going Johor AGAIN. As usual ah. I don't feel like following but I don't like eating at home during the weekends hahahahah and msian food is nice.

Alright then, just a short update. i was a bit disappointed I couldn't go for Bahas 4pm (NOT FOR THAT REASON OKAY MUNEEROAH) but oh well. I still dont know when theyre airing it.

Ok. BYE!

039; tvxq

http://sharingyoochun.net/2011/06/03/trans-110602-code-v-says-%E2%80%9Cthe-second-tvxq-we-will-surpass-rather-than-imitate%E2%80%9D/

This.

Code V, I respected you. I actually LIKED Addiction. But..

You say you respect them but yet you said that after their breakup, it gained you more fans?

You say you respect them but you say you'd rather surpass them? DGNA also said that they respect tvxq, look up to them as idols, but they NEVER said that they'd surpass them.

You confidently say that you look like jaejoong but you don't look a single bit like him. DGNA's Karam who looks like Jaejoong's doppelganger never even mentioned about himself looking like Jaejoong.

You say you'd rather show your own colours and not imitate them, but what was your performance of their song, Love in the ice like? Did you not just imitate all of their vocals? Did you not attempt to do Yoochun's high note? Is that not imitating? Or did you know, by singing a tvxq song was the only way to get the japanese fans to notice you? Isn't that taking advantage of tvxq's popularity? If you claimed that you were THAT good, you should be able to captivate them with your own song not with others'.

Tvxq won tons of awards for their first debut single, and won loads of rookie awards. You, you had to change your group name to attempt to be recognized, and even after that, Jungdok didn't even get attention, so you had to resort to going to Japan.

Tvxq gained immense popularity in Korea first before being confident enough to debut in Japan, and worked hard for years from being totally unrecognized to becoming the first Korean group to perform in Tokyo Dome, which only TOP NOTCH Japanese idols have been performing at so far. You, you gained popularity BECAUSE of what tvxq has achieved for, what they have brought into Japan, not because of your vocals and what not, just because you come from korea and your genre is somewhat similar to that of tvxq's.

Can you do a high note effortlessly like Changmin? Can you sing so passionately, making people who don't even know who you are, cry, like Junsu? Can your leader sacrifice so much to be a singer that he slept on the streets, at the park and improved his vocals from being so bad until he can do superb high notes now like Yunho? Can you captivate your audience with your singing until they cry because they've felt your honesty and passion in your singing and be able to come up with a random song on the piano just like that, like Yoochun? Can you sing so many different genres and excel well in all those genres, direct a whole concert by yourself, sing so flawlessly even with rigorous choreography, like Jaejoong? Prove it to me that you can do all that, then I'll get back my respect for you.

I am really, immensely disappointed. You just lost the respect of god knows how many Cassiopeians out there. We never really minded when rookie groups say that they want to be like tvxq but wanting surpass them and yet contradicting to your own words.. Thats just.. Idk what to say ah. Remember, TVXQ holds the guinness world record for having the most number of people in their fanclub IN THE WORLD. Just a warning.

To end a day on such a bad note is... just.. sad. On the other hand, Beast's fanmeet was enjoyable :) My throat's a bit sore but I'm still talking xD A bit of a headache after too much jumping thoughhh. Ouch, really painful ones but its subsiding, so yeah.

Have a good Sunday everyone. All the best to mwti for the bahas today. I can't come unfortunately, going Johor tmr. Do your best!

Good... mornight.