Assalamualaikum!
Alhamdulillah a good 6 weeks have passed since attachment started! Supposedly i'm supposed to have 10 more days of work before i officially end attachment but because of the flea market that was held on that weekend, i only have 7 days left of work! YAY! More time for me to rest and more time for me to work on my assignment.
Yes even though i complain of boredom every day at work, i actually have a lot of assignments to finish HEHEHE but I take it slow hehe. Insya allah i'll be able to finish them all on time lah. Currently working on my last 2 reports. Also the reports for the home visits i conducted.
About those 2 home visits... Just to sum it up, I sucked. Terribly. In my opinion. The first one actually went quite well although i was quite kancheong but the flow went well. For the second one, I was so prepared to do well, I wasn't even nervous. But the moment we reached the gate... I heard a dog barking. THERE WAS A DOG. IN THE HOUSE. As much as the client tried to restrain the dog from walking around too much, she still let the dog roam around the house freely at times and I was so terrified, I froze. I kept getting stuck while asking questions because I was so distracted by the dog. I mean, cmon lah I AM A MALAY OF COURSE I AM TERRIFIED OF DOGS. No matter how cute some of them are, I am terrified of dogs, especially when they bark. So that was the end. No point sulking about it.
Instead, I invited the class for Seoul garden after group supervision on Friday! Had a wonderful time hanging out with them and having fun! Especially had fun playing with the squid HAHAHAHA it's like a tradition for us if we go to seoul garden! From Azizah's bday celebration to MY birthday celebration to this time, we ALWAYS play with the squid hahaha cos it looks so cute!
Okay then, just a short update because I felt like it haha! About the work envt, I've came to a point where i've already adapted to it. Who cares if no one talks to me at work, I'm only left with 7 more days and I'll just do my own thing at my cubicle. I'm here to learn, although it would've been nice if i'd made some good relationships with people there, but it can't be helped if they don't want to. Right now I'm just listening to music and watching shows while doing my work so the loneliness won't be felt so much when i'm alone.
Ok then, till next time!
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Working life.
Assalamualaikum!
Alhamdulillah, I survived 4 weeks of attachment :) Just 4 more weeks to go!
I'm settling in quite well, already used to the workload. Our project, which was a flea market is done so we are more or less settled! Quite successful, we managed to earn like roughly $200 more than our target, which was totally unexpected.
Unfortunately, now i don't have an excuse to go over to the CCK Centre :( I've gotten really attached to some of the kids there and I know the staff there more than I know the staff at Woodlands. These 4 weeks, i think 3/4 of the time i spent it at CCK. Now that I'm back in Woodlands, everything feels so strange again.
Although one good thing is that I made friends with one of the Social Workers there which was totally unexpected! Since the Chinese staff there were away that time, I took the opportunity to ask her about the super quiet envt. So yeah, baby steps!
Next up is taking my own cases :/ Scheduled for 2 already in the 6th week. I don't think I'm confident but oh well, hentam je lah :p
I still do feel down sometimes in the office but I keep reminding myself that I've tried my best in socializing and now I should focus more on the professional aspect- which is to gain as much knowledge and experience working and not on the relationships. Which to me sucks because I hate not talking. I like to talk. I like to joke around, i like making lame jokes but I just can't do it at work because it's so quiet and they rarely ever talk to each other. I'm just an intern, I don't dare to make changes to the envt by being brave and doing something out of the blue like playing songs in the office or something because well, i'm only going to be there for another 4 more weeks.
I don't even get out of the office often because some of the staff still don't know me (HELL THEY WON'T EVEN OPEN THE OFFICE FOR ME WTH - but that's another story) and it's all awkward.
Emotionally, I'm suffering.
But then again there's only 4 more weeks left. I try to do my best everyday and the rest, I leave it up to Allah. I pray to Him to give me the strength - emotionally and physically - to go through each day because I know I can't do it without Him. I try to be positive in everything that I do, and sometimes even muster up the courage to do something I normally won't.
But then again, I'm not perfect. I still count the days left to attachment. I still count down the days left till the end of the day. I still look forward to the end of attachment. Is it wrong to do that? Does it seem like I'm not grateful for this chance given? I don't know. I really don't know....
/sigh/
Oh well. I still have a report to finish. And 5 daily journals to finish. And an assignment. And a translation. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH OMG I HAVE NO LIFE. TOO MUCH WORK TO DO. I'm in Johor right now but in the room and working on my assignment. Ah, working life sucks.
Bye!
Alhamdulillah, I survived 4 weeks of attachment :) Just 4 more weeks to go!
I'm settling in quite well, already used to the workload. Our project, which was a flea market is done so we are more or less settled! Quite successful, we managed to earn like roughly $200 more than our target, which was totally unexpected.
Unfortunately, now i don't have an excuse to go over to the CCK Centre :( I've gotten really attached to some of the kids there and I know the staff there more than I know the staff at Woodlands. These 4 weeks, i think 3/4 of the time i spent it at CCK. Now that I'm back in Woodlands, everything feels so strange again.
Although one good thing is that I made friends with one of the Social Workers there which was totally unexpected! Since the Chinese staff there were away that time, I took the opportunity to ask her about the super quiet envt. So yeah, baby steps!
Next up is taking my own cases :/ Scheduled for 2 already in the 6th week. I don't think I'm confident but oh well, hentam je lah :p
I still do feel down sometimes in the office but I keep reminding myself that I've tried my best in socializing and now I should focus more on the professional aspect- which is to gain as much knowledge and experience working and not on the relationships. Which to me sucks because I hate not talking. I like to talk. I like to joke around, i like making lame jokes but I just can't do it at work because it's so quiet and they rarely ever talk to each other. I'm just an intern, I don't dare to make changes to the envt by being brave and doing something out of the blue like playing songs in the office or something because well, i'm only going to be there for another 4 more weeks.
I don't even get out of the office often because some of the staff still don't know me (HELL THEY WON'T EVEN OPEN THE OFFICE FOR ME WTH - but that's another story) and it's all awkward.
Emotionally, I'm suffering.
But then again there's only 4 more weeks left. I try to do my best everyday and the rest, I leave it up to Allah. I pray to Him to give me the strength - emotionally and physically - to go through each day because I know I can't do it without Him. I try to be positive in everything that I do, and sometimes even muster up the courage to do something I normally won't.
But then again, I'm not perfect. I still count the days left to attachment. I still count down the days left till the end of the day. I still look forward to the end of attachment. Is it wrong to do that? Does it seem like I'm not grateful for this chance given? I don't know. I really don't know....
/sigh/
Oh well. I still have a report to finish. And 5 daily journals to finish. And an assignment. And a translation. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH OMG I HAVE NO LIFE. TOO MUCH WORK TO DO. I'm in Johor right now but in the room and working on my assignment. Ah, working life sucks.
Bye!
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