026; busy and aching

Work started and omfg I've never been this tired. After the first day, my hand started swelling and it hurt so bad that I didn't come the next day. But today I came, and it was fun xD Now that everyone is familiar with each other, can bully and complot together already against auntie eye-power. And today, we discovered the pantry! The toilet got pipe! No more bottles for me! Can throw already!

I didn't stay for OT because, well, I was tired and I wanted to go home and finish watching paradise ranch. Some stayed though, including astroboy. Today Justin almost lost his iphone. He did for a while but he found it. And we were talking about him in front of him in Malay but I think he knew lah because we point2 at him so we ask lah, eh you dont mind we talk about you is it? Cos earlier on we laughed so hard when Jana said he looked like the old version of mickey mouse when he removed his glasses and I translated for him and he said he didnt care xD So ape lagi, sambong! And astroboy is aware of our nickname for him already.. So we just call him astroboy from now on.

I went home and checked my email just now. and turns out i got shortlisted for the ncss scholarship by 2 companies, rotary family services centre and whispering hearts family services centre, scheduled for an interview on the 30th. Have to take leave. Idk what to prepare seh. Never really went for an interview for this sort of thing, and I'm not really confident in myself about being a social worker.

Will prepare for it on Sunday I guess, will be working on other days, too tired.. 20 minutes per interview. What on earth will they be asking for 20 minutes T___T Oh well. Will slowly prepare for it. Insya allah kheir.

Now back to paradise ranch. Adios.

025; work!

HELLO~

Work starts tomorrow! T___T Won't have time to do anything because its from 0830am to 0700pm.. Until April. If it wasn't for the money I wouldnt have even wanted to continue but.. hurrr. I need shoes. But nvm, since the work is infested with antisocials so its gonna be fun~ I hope I lose some weight since I wont have time to exercise with work.. Hurrr. Plus i need to sleep early from now on..

Johor was alright. Did my shopping. But of course, I can never stop shopping even after that. Gmarket punye pasal.

Today I went out to SATA and library to borrow books on autism.

And thats all. Idk what else to write about. Life isn't all that exciting lately. Hah.

Adios amigos~

024; brother

My baby brother Nazhir is autistic :(

Yup, mom went to KKH today to get him checked up and he was diagnosed with Autistic Spectrum Disorder (ASD). We were getting worried since he still isn't talking.. So yeah. Thinking of tagging along during his hospital visits cos mom said social workers were the ones doing the job! Cool right~

Today I went to Bedok to get meds, originally wanted to go SATA too to finish my medical checkup but we still didn't know how to get there besides taking the taxi.. After that we went to buy Mee Goreng Mamak again hehehehe addicted already OTL

Currently using new laptop. Hopefully it won't spoil. Trauma already. A bright lime green vaio :D Very big, if watch movie really enjoy ah. But I'm keeping the downloading to a minimum. Mostly just watch movies and dramas ah. Pray it won't spoil OTL

Going Johor tomorrow afternoon! 3D2N for another shopping trip, focusing mostly on~~~ MEEE! Poly wardrobe revamp hehe. Tunggu je, aku beli banyak bende esok! But since we're going at around 3, tomorrow just enjoy hotel facilities only aka SWIMMINGGGG~~ and gym for me xD Haven't packed yet.. Tonight ah..

Alright thats all~ Continue watch horror movie. Body#19~

Ciao~

023; appreciate life

First of all, I strongly recommend all of you to watch this. Personally, after watching this, I think I broke my own record of how fast I can cry. I think I started crying like, 3 seconds after the child started having difficulties.

See how he cried out in frustration when not able to stand up? Watch how his smile never left his face even though he couldn't see something that was right in front of him? There's another video which shows him 10 days prior his death. Please watch that too, especially towards the end.

Truly a precious child. Please please please appreciate your lives, your family, your friends, everyone, while you're still alive and never go astray. When something is wrong, turn to the only one who can help, Allah s.a.w. Prayers to those affected by the earthquakes and tsunamis in Japan and the other countries. Alhamdulillah, my cousins in Japan are doing well, they will be returning to Singapore next Friday, Insya Allah.

Ahh. Need to emo for a bit.

Have a safe and blessed trip to those going umrah tomorrow and those going for holidays next week! Abah says we'll be going Johor next week for 3 days. I aim for the gym at the hotel hehe.

I'm still trying to contact Afiqah, my old buddy at Maarif.. So difficult and I just got to know she went to the IT fair on the same day that I did but I didn't catch her there OTL So if anyone knows how to contact her, please do tell? Hehe thank you!

Ahh off to continue Buzzer Beat. Hehe just now I watched Psychic with Kang Dongwon and Gosu, awesome one! Kang dongwon acted his part so beautifully T___T not to mention his deep sexy voice! Come to think of it, Kim Soohyun(Dream High's Samdong) has a deep voice comparable to him but Kang Dongwon's voice is sort of edgier. Anyway, nice movie. Its a thriller though. I found this website with LOAAADS of latest movies, ALL HORROR MOVIES, imagine my excitement! Will put drama marathon on hold specially for them, unless I get too paranoid like after I watched Khurafat. But that was a Malay movie and I am particularly very scared of malay movies compared to others. Its just scarier.

Today I went out with Jannah to the IT fair~ Then walked around Suntec (avoiding Guardian at all costs), and marina square, then I was too tired and went to Pasir ris library to return and borrow some books and went home.

I met Aisyah too at the IT fair! Hehehe and Linati too and someone was with her I didn't catch who, we were talking while the escalator was moving (both different directions) hehe suddenly I miss wearing the purple uniform xD

Alright then.. Will update again when I feel like it~

Ciao~

022; live life!

HELLO!

Ahaha! I've been watching jdramas lately, so I'm in a great mood :D I wasn't a few days ago but all is well.. I think. I like being happy. I like being entertained by dramas. It helps me, idk, learn from other people and mature? I guess so.

USS was fun! I had to go home early and got mad because of that but I guess I'm better now. I still want to go again. Not satisfied! Had so much fun with them!~ & I'll wear better shoes next time. But my pretty shoes are really comfortable so I don't get why my left ankle is hurting.. Even now. Salah urat ke? But i didnt feel anything before~!

Alright wait, skip this part please i just need to rant for a bit

BODOHBODOHBODOH KO DA PENA TGK KAN KOIZORA KO DA TAU KAN CRITE DIE SEDIH NK MMPOS AND THE LAST TIME KO TGK KO MELALAK RABAK KAN KNAPE OTAK KO DEGIL NAH NK TGK LAGI CRITE NI, KAN DA 230 PAGI KO TGH MELALAK CM NK MMPOS MATA DA LEBAM SGT SMPI DAH JADI SLITS AND ASEK TERIGT BAB2 SEDIH ABEH NANGES LAGI KNAPE DEGIL NAH BODOH MCM XDE DRAMA LAIN GITU KO BOLE TGK PDHL ADE HUNDREDS OF OTHER SHOWS KO BOLE TGK KNPE KO PILIH CRITE YG SO HEARTWRENCHING SMPI KO MELALAK CMNI BODOH BAKA BABO KAN DA XLE STOP NANGES, BANTAL DA BASAH MCM MANE NK TIDO.

AHHH SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF. CEKIK DARAH. DA TAU BAB2 NI KO MELALAK TEROK.

Ahh alright. Warning ah, aku kalau nanges rabak. Igt time tu Mdm Baizah tunjuk cartoon psl leftenan adnannye sacrifice, aku sorang nanges, time cartoon tu dabes sume tgh senyap pstu aku tetibe pekik "TISSSUUEEEE!!! T____T" abeh sume cm o__o itu pon ko nanges?!

I tend to empathise too much.. Too much until i make it personal.. Like its my own burden.. Thats why I'm scared if i choose a job that requires me to not personalize other people's problems, like a counselor, i wont be able to do it.. I've always believed that its crucial for someone to have a person for him/her to share problems with, or you'll really get hurt inside if you keep it all to yourself.. Thats why I always open up to people very easily.. I trust people too easily.. and also the reason why i always like to ask questions about all you people's personal lives OTL sorry if it irks you. it happens naturally, you see. the sudden urge to know about all of your problems and trying to help .__. please please please tell me if it gets irritating so i wont do it to you anymore OTL

I'm thinking of taking the japanese cultural club for cca! But first i have to research on what they actually do lolol if it includes dressing up etc i wont ah. thinking of taking up japanese too but pikir balek, korean blom pro, nk move on xD will be continuing korean soon~ and starting on basic jap kot like what i did years before i started taking classes for korean also that time. masok tros pro xD

So today, as usual, stayed at home and finished off the butler drama after much cussing and kicking my bed while watching. accidentally cussed in front of my dad when he was in my room OTL i was too mad ah watching that drama! it made me so pissed off even after it ended. i mean, why does rihito get mei? he didnt do anything for her! kento deserves her more seh, rihito cabaran die siket je like the 2 duels je abeh saje je ckp at the end yg its mei's cabaran so she has to handle it herself and dalah die sepak mei abeh x ckp sorry!!! aku paleng benci laki yg pukol pmpn. so in the end, i didnt really like that drama. i liked the izumi and miruku characters though. but to be honest, of course i only continued watching that drama because of mizushima hiro hehehehehehe die hensem. his cleft! ive never seen a celebrity with a cleft that deep! so nice! his eyes also! pity die da kawen! Really shocked when i got to know he was married! dalah bebual english sexy gile and fluent pulak tu! FUYOOO RARE OI.

Next will be stalking Oguri shun's dramas. Dabes stalk mizushima xD blm habes ah but malas nk go through his dramas, byk sgt OTL Dalah time tgk crite butler asek pause video, bebual sorang jap betapa hotnye laki ni, pastu play balek xD

and i vow never to watch koizora and maundy thursday and a moment to remember ever ever again those are the movies that made me cry every time i watched no matter how many times ive watched, ill always cry as if its my first time.

koizora was bad seh. halfway i kept crying even before the sad bit started because i suddenly remembered how the movie was going to end and kept pausing to cry and eventually crying for 3 parts straight OTL

Ah its 3am. I need to sleep. I want to jog tomorrow but my ankle still hurts. I think I sprained something, really hurts seh when I walk. Hyuuu~

Ahh I admit, I still get the jitters when my phone vibrates. Oh well, time to move on right? Can't keep looking back at the past! Fighting! Ganbatte! Will improve on the phone thing soon~~

SAYONARA TOMODACHI~~

さよなら友達!

(hehehe finally da tuka!)

ps/: I cut my hair xD at first i only cut bangs (spur of the moment thing, idk if i regretted it but sometimes it looks nice xD) but eventually went to the hairdresser to cut it short. really short. shortest that ive gotten. roughly around chin length. exactly like IU's in marshmellow mv lolol. as usual, had a chat with the hairdresser, she ceritakan psl anak2 die sume xD and another hairdresser remembered me! the one who attended to me for hair treatment the other day xD waaahh! da lama x nmpk my first hairdresser when i first when there~ the blonde thin one. wonder where she went~ i really liked her! the people there very friendly! ok this ps is getting too long xDDD

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