I hate being the one who takes the initiative. Yes, it's good but sometimes it just gets too tiring when you know that the rest don't even bother.
I take the extra mile when it comes to my work and responsibilities. I sacrifice so many things. So should you. Because I'm tired of giving in for everyone.
Friday, June 29, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Experience
Assalamualaikum!
So many things to write about! I think. HAHA. Mainly because something happened and I really felt the need to blog about it but I couldn't write this post unless I finish this journal that I had to do because the thing happenedddddd. So yeah.
Firstly, PROGRAMME PLANNING EVENT. SIGNED. SEALED. DELIVERED. DONE!
So, the story is like this. This project was a pain in the ass. We put aside other projects just because of this project since it's very time consuming. And we went through a lot of setbacks along the way as mentioned in one of my previous posts.
And during the holidays, we received word that we had to push forward the event date. IMAGINE THAT. Being informed of such important details a week before the event! And having to push forward the date to 3 days before the supposed date! SO MANY LAST MINUTE PREPARATIONS. Plus, the number of children that we had to take on suddenly became 15. And we had already prepared logistics for FIFTY children. ALL THOSE MONEY WE WASTED.
So yeah. To cut the story short. The whole event WAS A MESS. Nothing, and i mean it, NOTHING went as planned. We never played any of the games we had originally prepared, we didn't start on time, the number of kids was like what, 13? And we were supposed to handle kids aged 10-14 but we ended up kids aged what, 6-18? SO MANY THINGS WENT WRONG.
Plus, WE COULD NOT HANDLE THE KIDS AT ALL. They were so rebellious, they didn't listen to us at all, they refused to participate, refused to listen to our instructions, they fought, they ran around, they just DIDN'T GIVE US THEIR ATTENTION AT ALL. It was chaos, disaster.
We ended up playing some useless games just so we could entertain them until the whole event ended. We tried as much as possible to try to carry out our objectives but... yeah we just... tried our best. We couldn't just give up and tell them to stop and just go home could we? Although I really had this temptation to just go to the toilet and cry my ass off. Really. I honestly wanted to. Imagine, everything that you planned, for what, 3 months? All down the drain! ALL OUR EFFORTS. But I decided to pick myself up and try hard until the end. I just hope we won't fail because I really don't want to retake this module.
So, after the whole thing ended... I was relieved. But there was one thing that bugged me, IMMENSELY. I was really shocked that the children were not on good terms WITH EACH OTHER. I concluded that the reason I was so disappointed after discovering this fact out was because I watched endless of dramas and animes, depicting how children who lived in a home are usually very attached to one another, super close with each other etc (e.g. Vampire Knight, some Taiwanese drama I watched etc etc) but my hopes were like... CRUSHED. I thought that since they couldn't receive love at their home homes, maybe in a children's home they could receive warmth, love and forge friendships with people who can relate to them, with people that have similar backgrounds... But I was wrong. And i was so disappointed.
And although I didn't agree with the Home's approach on handling the kids, sometimes I have to agree that they can't do anything else but to treat them that way (i.e. super strict, very professional). I think. Sometimes I wonder if they could have taken up a different approach, for e.g. make the environment super happy, loving, have the workers there talk and share with the kids, actually painting the Home in bright happy colors, maybe they could have made the children feel more welcomed.. But idk. Who am I to judge. Maybe they had their reasons for choosing that approach.
Ah. Depressed mode much. DRAMAS & ANIMES > YOU HAVE CHEATED ME!
But I'm happy that this whole thing has ended, thus a HUGE-ASS burden lifted off my shoulders.. Now I can get started on other projects and actually have time to revise.
So yeah. I don't feel like continuing this post. So... Bye.
So many things to write about! I think. HAHA. Mainly because something happened and I really felt the need to blog about it but I couldn't write this post unless I finish this journal that I had to do because the thing happenedddddd. So yeah.
Firstly, PROGRAMME PLANNING EVENT. SIGNED. SEALED. DELIVERED. DONE!
So, the story is like this. This project was a pain in the ass. We put aside other projects just because of this project since it's very time consuming. And we went through a lot of setbacks along the way as mentioned in one of my previous posts.
And during the holidays, we received word that we had to push forward the event date. IMAGINE THAT. Being informed of such important details a week before the event! And having to push forward the date to 3 days before the supposed date! SO MANY LAST MINUTE PREPARATIONS. Plus, the number of children that we had to take on suddenly became 15. And we had already prepared logistics for FIFTY children. ALL THOSE MONEY WE WASTED.
So yeah. To cut the story short. The whole event WAS A MESS. Nothing, and i mean it, NOTHING went as planned. We never played any of the games we had originally prepared, we didn't start on time, the number of kids was like what, 13? And we were supposed to handle kids aged 10-14 but we ended up kids aged what, 6-18? SO MANY THINGS WENT WRONG.
Plus, WE COULD NOT HANDLE THE KIDS AT ALL. They were so rebellious, they didn't listen to us at all, they refused to participate, refused to listen to our instructions, they fought, they ran around, they just DIDN'T GIVE US THEIR ATTENTION AT ALL. It was chaos, disaster.
We ended up playing some useless games just so we could entertain them until the whole event ended. We tried as much as possible to try to carry out our objectives but... yeah we just... tried our best. We couldn't just give up and tell them to stop and just go home could we? Although I really had this temptation to just go to the toilet and cry my ass off. Really. I honestly wanted to. Imagine, everything that you planned, for what, 3 months? All down the drain! ALL OUR EFFORTS. But I decided to pick myself up and try hard until the end. I just hope we won't fail because I really don't want to retake this module.
So, after the whole thing ended... I was relieved. But there was one thing that bugged me, IMMENSELY. I was really shocked that the children were not on good terms WITH EACH OTHER. I concluded that the reason I was so disappointed after discovering this fact out was because I watched endless of dramas and animes, depicting how children who lived in a home are usually very attached to one another, super close with each other etc (e.g. Vampire Knight, some Taiwanese drama I watched etc etc) but my hopes were like... CRUSHED. I thought that since they couldn't receive love at their home homes, maybe in a children's home they could receive warmth, love and forge friendships with people who can relate to them, with people that have similar backgrounds... But I was wrong. And i was so disappointed.
And although I didn't agree with the Home's approach on handling the kids, sometimes I have to agree that they can't do anything else but to treat them that way (i.e. super strict, very professional). I think. Sometimes I wonder if they could have taken up a different approach, for e.g. make the environment super happy, loving, have the workers there talk and share with the kids, actually painting the Home in bright happy colors, maybe they could have made the children feel more welcomed.. But idk. Who am I to judge. Maybe they had their reasons for choosing that approach.
Ah. Depressed mode much. DRAMAS & ANIMES > YOU HAVE CHEATED ME!
But I'm happy that this whole thing has ended, thus a HUGE-ASS burden lifted off my shoulders.. Now I can get started on other projects and actually have time to revise.
So yeah. I don't feel like continuing this post. So... Bye.
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Let loose!
Assalamualaikum!
Just got back from a 5-day holiday at Bandung! I won't go into it much though, just that it was really relaxing, and it really got my mind off things. Not that there are super stressful things happening to me right now, I think my life is now... laying low. So, yeah. Althougggghhhhhhh something DID happen during the holiday that.. irked me. AHHH PROGRAMME PLANNING IS DRIVING ME CRAZY. Datelines after datelines after datelines and there's just so much other things/projects that has to be finished! I swear, this semester is just CRAZY and I feel like I'm not doing enough /sigh
Okay so maybe my life isn't going so low after all.
Anyway I LOVED THE HOLIDAY. Relaxing. Love the weather. And the weather did miracles to my skin. But now that I'm back to hot humid Singapore, my skin isn't doing so well again. And..... I swear Indonesia has A LOT of hot guys. Just my type. HAHAHAHA. Whaaaaat. You can't blame meeee for all the hot guys in the worlddddd.
But I DID have to miss 2 freaking concerts because of the holiday HAHA. Till we meet, Shinhwa. HAHAHAHA. I MEAN COME ON ERIC MOON CAME TO SINGAPORE AND I MISSED HIM /pout
Ah I feel that I caught up on A LOT of sleep during the trip there. Every single car trip, I spent the journey sleeping. And oh oh the last night there, I had this amazing bath HAHAHHAHA in the bathtub!! /padahal I have a bathtub at my johor house =_=
But yeah I just relaxed in the bathtub for like an hour while my hair was being conditioned and just.. let loose. SLEPT ACTUALLY AHAHHAHAHAHA isn't that the finest way of letting loose? TO ME IT IS HAHAHAHA SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP I WANT TO SLEEEEEEEP
Ok ok I should get started on the proposal now.
BYE!
Just got back from a 5-day holiday at Bandung! I won't go into it much though, just that it was really relaxing, and it really got my mind off things. Not that there are super stressful things happening to me right now, I think my life is now... laying low. So, yeah. Althougggghhhhhhh something DID happen during the holiday that.. irked me. AHHH PROGRAMME PLANNING IS DRIVING ME CRAZY. Datelines after datelines after datelines and there's just so much other things/projects that has to be finished! I swear, this semester is just CRAZY and I feel like I'm not doing enough /sigh
Okay so maybe my life isn't going so low after all.
Anyway I LOVED THE HOLIDAY. Relaxing. Love the weather. And the weather did miracles to my skin. But now that I'm back to hot humid Singapore, my skin isn't doing so well again. And..... I swear Indonesia has A LOT of hot guys. Just my type. HAHAHAHA. Whaaaaat. You can't blame meeee for all the hot guys in the worlddddd.
But I DID have to miss 2 freaking concerts because of the holiday HAHA. Till we meet, Shinhwa. HAHAHAHA. I MEAN COME ON ERIC MOON CAME TO SINGAPORE AND I MISSED HIM /pout
Ah I feel that I caught up on A LOT of sleep during the trip there. Every single car trip, I spent the journey sleeping. And oh oh the last night there, I had this amazing bath HAHAHHAHA in the bathtub!! /padahal I have a bathtub at my johor house =_=
But yeah I just relaxed in the bathtub for like an hour while my hair was being conditioned and just.. let loose. SLEPT ACTUALLY AHAHHAHAHAHA isn't that the finest way of letting loose? TO ME IT IS HAHAHAHA SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP I WANT TO SLEEEEEEEP
Ok ok I should get started on the proposal now.
BYE!
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Short update!
Assalamualaikum!
Hehe for the first time in a while, I'm updating in SINGAPORE haha! Mainly because I'll be out the whole day on Friday and off to Johor at night, I have no time to download my anime so I'm sacrificing my sleep to dl xD
Just got home from a dinner date with Naz at the airport! Originally, the plan was to welcome our mwti friends from China and the plan was all set but at the last minute their flight was delayed to 12am OTL So we just decided to eat dinner and lepak. Maximising as much time as I can to catch up with old friends since I'll be so busy during the holidays and I feel guilty :/
I've been going back home really late lately and I sort of feel accomplished haha since usually the only time that I go home this late is for jalan raya haha! But now I've been staying back for projects... And I feel like... AN ADULT HAHA. Although when i reach home I have to deal with the endless nagging from my grandma but I usually just play songs on my phone while she's nagging HAHAHA.
Okay so I feel the need to blog about something important again but my mind IS A MESS right now because of projects and PMS so I can't really think straight so yeah maybe some other time.
This shall be a short post :D Good night!
Hehe for the first time in a while, I'm updating in SINGAPORE haha! Mainly because I'll be out the whole day on Friday and off to Johor at night, I have no time to download my anime so I'm sacrificing my sleep to dl xD
Just got home from a dinner date with Naz at the airport! Originally, the plan was to welcome our mwti friends from China and the plan was all set but at the last minute their flight was delayed to 12am OTL So we just decided to eat dinner and lepak. Maximising as much time as I can to catch up with old friends since I'll be so busy during the holidays and I feel guilty :/
I've been going back home really late lately and I sort of feel accomplished haha since usually the only time that I go home this late is for jalan raya haha! But now I've been staying back for projects... And I feel like... AN ADULT HAHA. Although when i reach home I have to deal with the endless nagging from my grandma but I usually just play songs on my phone while she's nagging HAHAHA.
Okay so I feel the need to blog about something important again but my mind IS A MESS right now because of projects and PMS so I can't really think straight so yeah maybe some other time.
This shall be a short post :D Good night!
Friday, June 1, 2012
Projects projects and more projects
Assalamualaikum!
FINALLY I HAVE SOME TIME TO SPARE TO BLOG! I swear, my schedule has been super packed lately and I'm not getting enough sleep over all these programmes and presentations! Still not regretting that I never took up a CCA hehe.
For the first time, my June holidays are packed. LIKE LITERALLY throughout the whole of the 2 weeks! 5 days I blocked out to go to Bandung for a short getaway and the rest of the days are for projects. Idiot projects. My scheduler is in pieces because I use it too much.
Projects. I SHALL START RANTING NOW.
PROGRAMME PLANNING. At first we thought it'd be easy. The next thing we knew, over a span of what, a month, we kept changing our proposal... For a record of 4 times (I think). Change = TOTAL REVAMP. From an outing to a close event to a free and easy programme to a totally limited 3 hour programme to a limited 5 hour programme. IMAGINE HOW MANY TIMES WE HAD TO RETHINK OF THEMES, GAMES, LOGISTICS, ETC. IMAGINE THE HORROR.
Liaising with other organizations is SO TROUBLESOME.
Another project! Our Marketing project! I swear at one point I was so pissed that I just felt like bawling right there and then! But nah, I did it in the toilet. HAHA. Not bawl lah just let out my frustrations for a bit. LUCKY the whole thing went smoothly and I didn't have to walk out of the centre.
Time flies when you're having fun. But now time flies because you're hella busy. One week left before June Holidays and I'm getting really stressed. Most of our projects are all halfway done and incomplete and that makes me really JHBFJHDBZFKJHXB.
In addition to that, someone has been making me super pissed off but I won't mention the name nor storytell it here because it just pisses me off. Nampak je innocent tapi belakang org.. Total hypocrite.
On a lighter note, I CHANGED MY PHONE! Samsung Galaxy S2 baby! I know I'm a bit outdated but I'm totally loving this phone! And and one of groups, 4/5 (including me) of the members own an S2 haha! Can become like Digivice like that HAHAHAHHA /childhood dream
I'm currently in Johor, apparently the only place that I can spare some time to blog. Friday night till Monday morning. Dad will be sending me straight to school on Monday. Projects, projects. I'll probably spend the whole weekend studying and finishing up assignments. I have a test on Tuesday. Research methods which is a totally boring irritating frustrating module that I CANNOT STAND. It's the 7th week of school and I just knew what the lecturer's name was and it wasn't because I was curious, but because one of my classmates posted sth in the class fb and she mentioned his name. So yeah.
Alrighty I'm really tired already and I plan to spend most of tmr studying for research methods and doing up assignments.... /sigh. May music and karaoke-ig while studying last me through the day.
Good night!
FINALLY I HAVE SOME TIME TO SPARE TO BLOG! I swear, my schedule has been super packed lately and I'm not getting enough sleep over all these programmes and presentations! Still not regretting that I never took up a CCA hehe.
For the first time, my June holidays are packed. LIKE LITERALLY throughout the whole of the 2 weeks! 5 days I blocked out to go to Bandung for a short getaway and the rest of the days are for projects. Idiot projects. My scheduler is in pieces because I use it too much.
Projects. I SHALL START RANTING NOW.
PROGRAMME PLANNING. At first we thought it'd be easy. The next thing we knew, over a span of what, a month, we kept changing our proposal... For a record of 4 times (I think). Change = TOTAL REVAMP. From an outing to a close event to a free and easy programme to a totally limited 3 hour programme to a limited 5 hour programme. IMAGINE HOW MANY TIMES WE HAD TO RETHINK OF THEMES, GAMES, LOGISTICS, ETC. IMAGINE THE HORROR.
Liaising with other organizations is SO TROUBLESOME.
Another project! Our Marketing project! I swear at one point I was so pissed that I just felt like bawling right there and then! But nah, I did it in the toilet. HAHA. Not bawl lah just let out my frustrations for a bit. LUCKY the whole thing went smoothly and I didn't have to walk out of the centre.
Time flies when you're having fun. But now time flies because you're hella busy. One week left before June Holidays and I'm getting really stressed. Most of our projects are all halfway done and incomplete and that makes me really JHBFJHDBZFKJHXB.
In addition to that, someone has been making me super pissed off but I won't mention the name nor storytell it here because it just pisses me off. Nampak je innocent tapi belakang org.. Total hypocrite.
On a lighter note, I CHANGED MY PHONE! Samsung Galaxy S2 baby! I know I'm a bit outdated but I'm totally loving this phone! And and one of groups, 4/5 (including me) of the members own an S2 haha! Can become like Digivice like that HAHAHAHHA /childhood dream
I'm currently in Johor, apparently the only place that I can spare some time to blog. Friday night till Monday morning. Dad will be sending me straight to school on Monday. Projects, projects. I'll probably spend the whole weekend studying and finishing up assignments. I have a test on Tuesday. Research methods which is a totally boring irritating frustrating module that I CANNOT STAND. It's the 7th week of school and I just knew what the lecturer's name was and it wasn't because I was curious, but because one of my classmates posted sth in the class fb and she mentioned his name. So yeah.
Alrighty I'm really tired already and I plan to spend most of tmr studying for research methods and doing up assignments.... /sigh. May music and karaoke-ig while studying last me through the day.
Good night!
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