008; 2 lines

어디서 뭘 하길래? 얼마나 바쁘길래?

벌써 날 잊은거니? 마음을 접은거니?

- Davichi ; 8282

These 2 lines of lyrics.. Really.. /clutch heart

It basically describes everything my mind is thinking about.

007; last day of november

Still waiting for job interview results. Will be having a mass briefing for the teachers aid program at iman kindergarten tomorrow at Tampines. Alone again. Forever alone.

I got lost yesterday, going to the recruitment agency, and again to Transitlink. I am absolutely horrible at reading maps. Took me roughly 20 minutes when the return back took 5. Hah.

So my phone broke down so I had to reboot, causing all my apps and music and videos to go poof. But I didn't really mind, weirdly, because I don't really use the apps in my phone excluding some crucial ones like period tracker lolol. So yeah.

Decided not to go out hunting for jobs today cos the maid is off to indonesia and i feel obliged to help around with the housework, especially with Nazhir still sick.. Poor baby can't drink milk.

I dreamt of getting my olevel results- 16. And i uhh cried cos i couldnt get into anything i liked with those results- none of the courses, jcs. So i am absolutely terrified of results, seriously.

OMG KAN AKU DA MAKI KUAT2 TGK CRITER NI! MENGGELETAR SEH, MARAH SGT!! GRAVEDIGGER HAS TO DIEEEEEEEE!!

/breathe in breathe out

I have to go to the store to buy bread after this. Adios.

006; I'm you, daddy

THIS WAS SO PRECIOUS, I CRIED WHEN JACK SAID "I'm you Daddy!" LIKEKDBHDSKVHD

Okay, okay, imagine this kid who just lost his mother to a serial killer. And of course, Hotch too lost his ex-wife (they divorced but still loved each other, it was just his work getting in the way) and Jack does something like this. SWEET KAN? T______T Basketnye Reaper pg buno Hailey T___T Padan muke, Hotch rembat die smpai mati.

BILE EPISODE 10 NK KLUAR NI! Pdhl air one week ago seh! Today da 6x11!

And i changed the wallpapers in my phone to reid hahahahahahaha byk sgt gmbr cute xD

Alright. End of CM spam.

005; JOOOBBBB

I FEEL A SURGE OF POSITIVE VIBES TODAY! Firstly, received an email for an interview. Warehouse packer, since I was that desperate, so whatever, okay ah. Then I got a call! This guy, I couldn't catch his name, even though he mentioned it twice, offering me a job interview. He went through it, saying it was for Customer Service Assistant, all you have to do is answer enquiries, sell tickets, collecting money. $6/hr and there's 2 shifts. Location later they confirm, but at mrt station, ticket office. Hopefully it'll go through ah. Shift also quite okay. But I'll be working aloneeeee~ Forever alone~~~

Oh his name Gerald haha. So klao aku amek kerje ni, nanti krg nmpk aku kt ticket office mrt stn. whoa........ memalukannye. but for money. FOR MONEYYYY (narnia style xD) I WILL (try) TO ENDURE!

Alright since have to meet at 3pm, I go out at 2pm, get ready at 1pm. Yes I do plan like that. Okay, need to eat. Like, right now. Adios yo.

004; hello

Yo. Yes I'm still rotting at home, watching Bones this time and snippets of Criminal minds because I can't live a day without it. And some movies here and there. I have also borrowed a stack of books which i have not really touched. Maybe one, in the toilet. Hehe. It's all.. educational books of course... Of.. Serial killers.. .___.

Yes I do intend to go all the way and get an honours in psychology. I want to get into Singapore's BSU! Isn't it awesome? I mean , if I was fit enough I'd try for FBI but everyone knows I can't run for my life so that's out the window. Maybe I'll consider a kindergarten teacher. And psychiatrist. But of course, it all depends on my results in january. If I don't get into psychology, either I'll continue with alevels or retake Os. Yeah I'm still in the process of convincing mother into letting me retake xD

Yesterday I watched 2 R21 movies which I SWEAR I didnt know were rated that high and i have concluded that I am NOT ready to watch them. Mirror 2.. was.. horrible. My hands were cold and shaking watching all that horrendous GORE. The guy cut his stomach open and took his intestines out and this woman gets beheaded! I was speechless and horrified and the only emoticon that can fully express that emotion is O______O.

So today was Kak Farhah's Nikah which I didnt go to because I went to apply for a job at Daiso WHICH ended up as a failure because they didnt allow us to wear the tudung so that was a waste of time. Plazasing holds a lot of... disturbing memories.. Especially that of the lee minho incident which we almost died. really traumatic experience. Another reason why I quit kpop, because I dont want to die halfway through a concert, ogling at underage kids showing their abs (soon. soon i tell you). Better I die as a martyr.

Later on after Maghrib we went to the Majlis Khatamul Quran. And some Nasyid which I raise my hand in guilt, admitting that I had my earpiece plugged in loud listening to Usher while the old ladies sang the nasyid. That made it bearable. After that I tossed the idea of going to the Pasar Malam a block away to Abah and ended up buying Ramly burger and some other deliciously sinful food. I do plan on going again tomorrow to buy some spectacles. Broke or not, those glasses were too pretty and colourful to resist. I resisted the iphone case okay, i thought that was an improvement.

Kak Farhah's wedding colours are pink and white! Hehehe. Shouldve seen how my eyes went O__O but in awe, seeing the bright atmosphere of the void deck. But I don't really plan on having a persandingan on MY wedding. I'd rather it be at a mosque. for the aqad nikah. Larger. more people can come. Unless my future mother in law wants a grand one. But personally I'd rather use the thousands of dollars to instead splurge on my honeymoon! Much much much more worthwhile!

This intern on Bones, Wendall is very good-looking. Bones and Booth should really just MARRY. I cannot stand it. If the series ends and they dont end up together , I will skin the producers alive like the sheeps during Aidiladha.

I wonder when we'll go to Johor again. Need to splurge. Soon. I want to find Criminal minds cds too. Yes bndaifnasidfaiu I love criminal minds. Hotch, Rossi, Prentiss, JJ, Morgan, Garcia, REID especially. But of course, this too, shall pass. Just like my digimon, csi, photoshop, cpop, kpop days. Those were the days~

Psychiatrists always ask the right questions. Like being stabbed through the heart kind of questions but still, it explains everything.

I need to concentrate on Bones. Adios amigos. Miss you loads classmates~ Really.

003; couch potato

Hi. I have run out of Criminal Minds episodes to watch so life sucks atm. Like seriously idk what to do, not seeing my baby's face xD

Hensem kan xD Hahaha had an argument with Mr Hazrin how Reid pwnes him. I miss criminal minds already. BILE EPISODE 10 NK KLUAR KT INTERNET~? So I think now I'll start watching Bones.

Off to get ready for interview. Still dk whether to apply for maarif or not. Toodles yo.

002; still no job

My feet are killing me. So, I slept at 4am watching Criminal Minds, all 7 episodes of the sixth season. Then went to meet Nazihah at Bishan for interview. Then surveyed Junction 8, prayed at An-Nahdhah and applied for some jobs, idk. Then ate at kfc, went to Orchard to shop with Iza, Liyana and papadarling.

Just. Tiring. Could sleep standing. OH AND I MADE A LIBRARY CARD 8D Payed my debt -__- and made a card just because xD

NOW IDK WHAT TO DO .__. Watched the eighth episode of Criminal Minds. now i think i'll watch a super lq heaven's postman. idk whether i should go woodlands library or not. Surveyed pasir ris library just now, the psychology books sucked. Bishan had great ones. Maybe I'll go Bishan, borrow books and rot at Elias CC's new Mcd. I want to survey the shops at whitesands too though. idk. my legs hurt a lot.

Okay, big mistake, watching heaven's postman. IDBUOIBDSOI JAEJOONG. REID. REID. REMEMBER REID. AWESOME SPENCER REID. ARSONISTS ARE USUALLY WHITE MALES, RANGING FROM 17-25YEARS OLD. THEY ALSO TEND TO WAIT AND WATCH WHILE THEIR VICTIMS BURN.

Yes I'm beginning to pick stuff up from Criminal Minds. I'll continue my mental illnesses research soon.

001; FREEDOM

121110 Marked the end of Os!

And even though I've applied for countless jobs, none have contacted me back :/ So I am currently jobless, moneyless, lifeless. Day one of end of Os, I spent watching Criminal Minds, and 2 Pokemon movies back to back so today wasn't that much of a waste, ya? Also did a bit of research on Alzheimer's disease, Asperger's disease and Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder (ADHD). Just for kicks. Will be resuming my research on mental illnesses tomorrow.

Ah, tomorrow. Dearest brother Naqib will be graduating from kindergarten! Will have to wake up early to go to his graduation ceremony. Since he was sick for a week (high fever), he lost his position to be the reader of the Quran translation bit for the performance tomorrow. I THINK. IDK.

Olevels were okay. I got through it. Just hope the moderation won't be too bad. I can't risk having Bs or I won't even have a chance to go for the course I want in Poly. Of course, there's the other alternative, JC but I'd rather avoid that alternative. So there are approximately ~5 courses that I'm interested in and 4/5 are Psychology courses. The other is Digital Forensics. No COP yet though.

So besides rotting at home while waiting for calls, I have decided to make the best of the excess time to go to the library and read up on Psychology, etc. Beats home. and I haven't paid my library debt hehehe. Only God (and the library people) knows how much my debt has accumulated to.

I wonder what I should do with all these school books and notes. Hmm.

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