Experience

Assalamualaikum!

So many things to write about! I think. HAHA. Mainly because something happened and I really felt the need to blog about it but I couldn't write this post unless I finish this journal that I had to do because the thing happenedddddd. So yeah.

Firstly, PROGRAMME PLANNING EVENT. SIGNED. SEALED. DELIVERED. DONE!

So, the story is like this. This project was a pain in the ass. We put aside other projects just because of this project since it's very time consuming. And we went through a lot of setbacks along the way as mentioned in one of my previous posts.

And during the holidays, we received word that we had to push forward the event date. IMAGINE THAT. Being informed of such important details a week before the event! And having to push forward the date to 3 days before the supposed date! SO MANY LAST MINUTE PREPARATIONS. Plus, the number of children that we had to take on suddenly became 15. And we had already prepared logistics for FIFTY children. ALL THOSE MONEY WE WASTED.

So yeah. To cut the story short. The whole event WAS A MESS. Nothing, and i mean it, NOTHING went as planned. We never played any of the games we had originally prepared, we didn't start on time, the number of kids was like what, 13? And we were supposed to handle kids aged 10-14 but we ended up kids aged what, 6-18? SO MANY THINGS WENT WRONG.

Plus, WE COULD NOT HANDLE THE KIDS AT ALL. They were so rebellious, they didn't listen to us at all, they refused to participate, refused to listen to our instructions, they fought, they ran around, they just DIDN'T GIVE US THEIR ATTENTION AT ALL. It was chaos, disaster.

We ended up playing some useless games just so we could entertain them until the whole event ended. We tried as much as possible to try to carry out our objectives but... yeah we just... tried our best. We couldn't just give up and tell them to stop and just go home could we? Although I really had this temptation to just go to the toilet and cry my ass off. Really. I honestly wanted to. Imagine, everything that you planned, for what, 3 months? All down the drain! ALL OUR EFFORTS. But I decided to pick myself up and try hard until the end. I just hope we won't fail because I really don't want to retake this module.

So, after the whole thing ended... I was relieved. But there was one thing that bugged me, IMMENSELY. I was really shocked that the children were not on good terms WITH EACH OTHER. I concluded that the reason I was so disappointed after discovering this fact out was because I watched endless of dramas and animes, depicting how children who lived in a home are usually very attached to one another, super close with each other etc (e.g. Vampire Knight, some Taiwanese drama I watched etc etc) but my hopes were like... CRUSHED. I thought that since they couldn't receive love at their home homes, maybe in a children's home they could receive warmth, love and forge friendships with people who can relate to them, with people that have similar backgrounds... But I was wrong. And i was so disappointed.

And although I didn't agree with the Home's approach on handling the kids, sometimes I have to agree that they can't do anything else but to treat them that way (i.e. super strict, very professional). I think. Sometimes I wonder if they could have taken up a different approach, for e.g. make the environment super happy, loving, have the workers there talk and share with the kids, actually painting the Home in bright happy colors, maybe they could have made the children feel more welcomed.. But idk. Who am I to judge. Maybe they had their reasons for choosing that approach.

Ah. Depressed mode much. DRAMAS & ANIMES > YOU HAVE CHEATED ME!

But I'm happy that this whole thing has ended, thus a HUGE-ASS burden lifted off my shoulders.. Now I can get started on other projects and actually have time to revise.

So yeah. I don't feel like continuing this post. So... Bye.