Working life.

Assalamualaikum!

Alhamdulillah, I survived 4 weeks of attachment :) Just 4 more weeks to go!

I'm settling in quite well, already used to the workload. Our project, which was a flea market is done so we are more or less settled! Quite successful, we managed to earn like roughly $200 more than our target, which was totally unexpected.

Unfortunately, now i don't have an excuse to go over to the CCK Centre :( I've gotten really attached to some of the kids there and I know the staff there more than I know the staff at Woodlands. These 4 weeks, i think 3/4 of the time i spent it at CCK. Now that I'm back in Woodlands, everything feels so strange again.

Although one good thing is that I made friends with one of the Social Workers there which was totally unexpected! Since the Chinese staff there were away that time, I took the opportunity to ask her about the super quiet envt. So yeah, baby steps!

Next up is taking my own cases :/ Scheduled for 2 already in the 6th week. I don't think I'm confident but oh well, hentam je lah :p

I still do feel down sometimes in the office but I keep reminding myself that I've tried my best in socializing and now I should focus more on the professional aspect- which is to gain as much knowledge and experience working and not on the relationships. Which to me sucks because I hate not talking. I like to talk. I like to joke around, i like making lame jokes but I just can't do it at work because it's so quiet and they rarely ever talk to each other. I'm just an intern, I don't dare to make changes to the envt by being brave and doing something out of the blue like playing songs in the office or something because well, i'm only going to be there for another 4 more weeks.

I don't even get out of the office often because some of the staff still don't know me (HELL THEY WON'T EVEN OPEN THE OFFICE FOR ME WTH - but that's another story) and it's all awkward.

Emotionally, I'm suffering.

But then again there's only 4 more weeks left. I try to do my best everyday and the rest, I leave it up to Allah. I pray to Him to give me the strength - emotionally and physically - to go through each day because I know I can't do it without Him. I try to be positive in everything that I do, and sometimes even muster up the courage to do something I normally won't.

But then again, I'm not perfect. I still count the days left to attachment. I still count down the days left till the end of the day. I still look forward to the end of attachment. Is it wrong to do that? Does it seem like I'm not grateful for this chance given? I don't know. I really don't know....



/sigh/

Oh well. I still have a report to finish. And 5 daily journals to finish. And an assignment. And a translation. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH OMG I HAVE NO LIFE. TOO MUCH WORK TO DO. I'm in Johor right now but in the room and working on my assignment. Ah, working life sucks.

Bye!