Assalamualaikum,
If you've noticed, I've been reposting a lot of uplifting/motivating stuff on fb/twitter/ig.. and here's my confession. I really needed it.
It's been a week since internship started and.. whoa.. i never knew it would be this difficult? Every single day since day 1, i went home feeling so mentally, physically, emotionally exhausted. I've been sleeping at 9.30pm everyday wtf right i usually sleep at 3am. I have had to pick myself up at the end of every single day and give myself motivation every single morning.
To tell you the truth, it gets really depressing. Like I mentioned before, I'm not the sort of person to share? I mean, I cannnn but no one's asked, and everyone just seems so busy with their work and all and I don't want to bother them with my emotional needs lol. And it's been like this since day 1, through all my school transfers, new beginnings etc that I've built up enough resilience to get back up by myself. It gets lonely, yes. Many times. Countless times. But I've also realized that I shouldn't depend on people. I shouldn't place expectations on people. Because people are not perfect.
What you SHOULD do is pray. I've been looking forward to pray everyday just to have someone to talk to and share my worries. AND IT WORKS PEOPLE. IT WORKS! Of course, you don't get immediate answers/response but that belief that it'll all be okay, that you're going through this for a reason, that something better is waiting for you at the end of the tunnel, that Allah knows what you're going through, every single moment of anguish that you feel, he KNOWS and will not burden you more than you can handle.. having all these beliefs really help. You just have to turn to Him and He will turn to you, and help you through it, journey with you through it.
And it'll all be okay.
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