Rant

This is a ranting post.

I am officially this close to exploding. Of what? Of anger. To who? My grandmother.

Okay so here's the thing. As you get older, you are bound to be involved in things that will take up your time until late night. And currently I'm at that stage of going home late because of events, wanting to work overnight to gain extra money. But this grandmother of mine just refuses to let us study till late, work till late. Her reason why? E.g. when I said I'll be working overnight for some nights she told me I didn't need to work, like parents didn't give me enough money. If we go home late she will complain and nag to my mother, my father, my sisters, EVERYONE IN THE HOUSEHOLD every few minutes.

I know you all might think this is normal. BUT SHE DOES IT EVERY SINGLE TIME FOR YEARS NOW AND I CAN'T FIND THE PATIENCE TO DEAL WITH HER. Because when she starts nagging, she will relate it to how we all don't love her anymore and we all don't care about her anymore. WHERE THE HELL IS THE LINK BETWEEN GOING HOME LATE AND NOT LOVING HER??

I appreciate her concern, really but ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. I want to study, I want to work and she will NOT be a barrier against me and what I want to do. Hell, my parents allow so why should i consider her nagging? Like I care. Day by day she is getting more irritating and I honestly cannot stand to be in her presence already.

Mom keeps telling me to ignore her but I am doing my best to just shut the hell up when she's nagging but oh my god it makes me even more hateful towards her when she goes on and on. She just cannot understand that I'm growing up and that there are things that I have to do. I can't be under her freaking shell forever. She thinks that the moment we step out of the house there are criminals waiting on standby to rape me. WHAT THE HELL.

I don't want to hate her. I really don't. But if this goes on, one day I will just agree with her when she says that we don't love her anymore.