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Assalamualaikum.

It's STILL the holidays. Rotting myself away watching dramas. Getting tired of it though but then again, I'm too lazy to go out. And since one of my plans was... well cancelled, the more free I am now.

The thing I don't like the most about holidays is that you have too much time. And when you have too much time, you start to think a lot. When you start to think a lot, you get depressed. And that's the state I'm in.

I am not depressed about anything in particular but idk I'm just feeling so on edge. Like something is missing. I don't feel.. at ease. AND ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY NOT KNOWING WHY. I feel like just hiding under my blankets and never coming out.

In addition to that, something happened that cancelled my whole holiday plans and I am so disappointed and sad right now and I just can't get over it. Yes, I know there has to be a hikmah behind it but I just can't seem to grab the fact that it happened, and I'm still grieving over it. "Get over it" I keep telling myself but it's easier said than done. To have something that you were looking forward to for months to crash and burn in mere minutes is really quite painful- emotionally.

And of course I'm distracting myself by burying myself in dramas and shows and animes. And this one anime really did the job well haha for a full 20+ minutes I managed to not get depressed and screamed my ass off cos the new episode release was SO EPIC. THE WHOLE EPISODE WAS EPIC. From the duel to the almost death to the proposal. IT HAD ME LEGIT-LY SCREAMING FOR THE WHOLE EPISODE. I AM NOT KIDDING. IF ITS NOT SCREAMING IT WAS ALMOST TEARING MY HAIR OFF MY HEAD.

Alrighty because of that I had a jolt of adrenaline rush so now I'm too high to sleep shall find something to do haha good night!