Penning down thoughts..

Assalamualaikum!

Suddenly I have this overwhelming need to blog! The feeling just popped out of nowhere! HAHA! Actually, not nowhere lah, it came with a reason :p Anyway I'm at home today since my GSM is over and I don't have any classes today. It's a Friday and I'm at home! HAHA I was so happy that I got to sleep in this morning.

Okay back to issue. I was researching about topics to be used for Research Methods module when my lecturer SMS-ed me, asking if so far I was comfortable with what she has been teaching under the Working with Special needs and disabilities module.. And I was like, AH did she notice my sullen-ness during sharing session the previous day? Cos I was in a super sullen mood when we were sharing about different perceptions people would have towards people with special needs. I was okay up till people started mentioning that some would bully, ignore people with special needs, some parents would think that it's a waste of money... Then I swear I got teary-eyed thinking about my brother and his future.. I kept thinking like, you shouldn't do that.. You shouldn't think like that... They're special in their own way.. And I got all teary eyed but I fought the tears lah of course, it'd be an awkward situation if I suddenly burst out crying in the middle of class... I even felt like fighting back but in the end I controlled myself and instead told the person to say it in a more sensitive manner, IDK if she caught it lah but I was.. affected I guess.

Then my lecturer called me over the phone, asking if I was comfortable in sharing some experiences and whatnot in the next lecture, which was going to be about Autism and I agreed since I really wanted people to know about my experiences and also more about ASD. I shall talk to my mum about it and ask her about some stuff that I can show, and maybe even record snippets of Nazhir talking or what.

Something that I particularly want to stress on is that... My brother is the light of our lives. He makes us so happy with his antics and even though sometimes we can be so frustrated with him, so burdened by the sacrifices that we need to do for him.. We know that we're all that he's got. If not for us, his family, who else can take care of him? Who else can love him as much as we do? Who else can put the disabled part of him away and accept him as who he is?

I will stop here though, since I don't want to spoil my sharing next week :p Hehe but that's just the essence of the message that I'll bring out during the sharing. Just wanted to.. write it down here.

Just a short entry :) School has been doing fine, shall catch up on my studies today. Bye!