Currently in the midst of exams, cramming till no end. My aim this semester is to get a gpa >3.5 and I'm really working hard for it. To the point that I'm falling sick. In the middle of the test today, I started sneezing so many times and sniffing and my eyes started watering until it clouded my mind. But I did try my best to finish off the test and I hope those hours of studying was worth it.
Anyway I just felt like letting off some steam here.
Sometimes I feel like I don't want to get involved. Sometimes I feel like I can make it in life without having any attachments to anybody, without having people to rely on. Simply because I've been living well without depending on anyone for my problems. I've been working them out independently without any help and I'm all well now right?
Although sometimes its frustrating, lonely... But I'm scared that if I get too involved, I'll back out. I'll try too much to please the other party to the point that it's not me. I'm lacking so much as a friend. I can't show my care, I can't verbalize what I think. I'm just so awkward at these stuff that I try to stay away. //sigh
On a lighter note, Mum finally approved of my trip to Genting! YES BABY 20-22 March I'll be going to Genting with ma homieeeees! So excited to go to the theme park! And it's my first ever trip overseas without my parents! 3 DAYS OF FREEDOM BABY.
Also decided to apply for volunteer work during the holidays, just to get some experience for the future.
Ah idk how to make myself be in a good mood again .___. I should just stop getting involved. Anyway, you were borned alone and you'll die alone too.
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