Year 3

Assalamualaikum!

Ah finally, Year 2 Sem 2 is officially over! All assignments handed in, results are out (except for attachment results), party poppers popped..... And a diploma plus module later, Year 3 has begun.

Yes, did not get enough rest, only a few days that I could afford to sleep in.. Life sucks already haha! Time flies so fast doesn't it? A year later we'll be graduating and leading our own lives.. I don't know if I'm prepared for it, honestly.

I'm turning 20 this year. I don't feel old actually, my mind still functions like a child haha! I still want to have fun, play pranks, fool around but society expects the opposite. Oh, society and it's expectations..

I've been trying to ge tout of my cave lately and actually applied to be a part of some alumni project that Irsyad is planning. I feel a bit uncomfortable, going to be around people whom i barely know, and rarely ever talk to.. It's sort of a step outside my comfort zone? But the one thing that made me sign up is that I really feel that I can contribute with all that I've learnt in Poly and hopefully, in sya Allah, it will be beneficial? I don't know. It doesn't stop me from being so frightened to socialize. Funny isn't it, a social work student who is scared of socializing. I hope I'm doing the right thing.

I just thought that, hell, I'm turning 20 this year, I better start doing something! And that's why I'm trying- TRYING only ah, this is like the 2nd prototype- to be aware of my diet recently. HAHA! The first try failed, mainly because I found out that I didn't have to take part in the idiot fitness test (I feel so cheated) but then I realized, again, that I'm turning 20 and not getting any healthier and I'm not even married yet so I better get started early. It's difficult, mind you, and actually money consuming but I really feel like I have to do this, for my own sake. Being someone who loves food and eats anything, it's really, really hard. But I'm taking it step by step. The exercising part is by far most difficult for me since I have very weak legs since I was a child and I can't walk for like an hour, I'll get exhausted. But, baby steps and hopefully I'll be able to run like all the others. Haha! And of course another one of my pet peeves- Heat. I hate sweating. I hate being out there in the Sun. Which is why I'm also having doubts about this exercise thing /sigh/ the most difficult part is the tudung of course, it'll be 10 times hotter if I ran with my tudung on so I'm still trying to figure that out.. Running in Singapore is out of the story already, lately it's been super humid and hot. So... Running whenever I'm in Johor maybe?

Ah then, another problem.. With the limited number of days till school officially reopens, I have limited days to relax and spend time catching up on my animes and movies. Most of the time when I'm in Johor, I'll spend the whole entire day doing that and I don't know if I can spare some time to actually go jogging/running.

Dilemmas, dilemmas. Oh well.

I don't really have anything much to update on.. There are some issues flying about but I'd rather not talk about it here. Let's just hope that everything will go well this year. Cheers to the last year of Poly!