Reflections

Assalamualaikum!

This is a bit late but here's a post on my reflections, not necessarily for the year of 2012 but maybe throughout these 2 years of being in poly?

Okay so here's the thing, our attachment is officially starting tomorrow. CRAZY RIGHT? Just 3 days after finishing our exams (which in my opinion did not go well but oh well, I tried my best) and just straightaway attachment! After attachment we'll be having a short break, then FYP! After FYP, another short break and straightaway attachment #2! THEN GRADUATION!!

Time is flying past way too fast and I don't think I'm prepared. I'm prepared to learn some more through FYP and attachments but I AM NOT READY TO BE SEPARATED FROM MY CLASSMATES! We've gotten too close over the years and to be honest, I actually look forward to seeing my classmates everyday because they're such a lovely bunch of people ♥ But now that attachment is starting and I'm actually going to be attached to a centre without a partner, oh my goodness I'm going to be so lonelyyyy.

I just hope it won't be another case like the time I worked at Suntec for a while. Eating lunch alone was so depressing and there was no one around my age to befriend. I really suffered man. Then I realized how I liked being around people. I mean yeah, I do like being alone but being alone has its limits man. Being around positive people really is quite fun!

Although I am set to come with a positive mind since I've been dreaming of working at EIPIC centre and experiencing what is it like there. My greatest fear however has always been one thing- counselling. I love doing group programmes and everything else but I am the most scared of counselling. And I have honestly no idea why. My stomach just shrivels at the thought of having to counsel someone, even if its in the presence of a supervisor. So idk, I think I'm going to bring it up to my sup one day.

Being someone who is super organized and hates unexpected things, I have come up with a list of things to prepare for the attachment like questions and notes and whatever. That was actually one thing that Jocelyn once commented during a counselling session (not one on one, the module counselling when we had fake counselling sessions) is that I'm too organized and prepare too much. Idk i hate not knowing what's going to happen so that's why i always prepare and have so many backup plans and i think of every possible outcome of something. I mean it's good to a certain extent lah but for counselling, I KNOW IT DOESN'T WORK because you have to follow the client's flow not your own so I guess that's what i'm most worried of? I hate the unexpected. I want to be prepared for everything. I want plans. Is it too demanding? Hahahahah idk laaahhhh wahlaaaooooo

Ok moving on!

FYP group! We decided on it after the placement briefing and I was really scared bcos majority voted for drawing lots so that's what we went through with. Anyway I voted for the other option which was to choose our own members but in the end I just left it all to Allah- I mean if i get a member whom I think I cannot work with, I'll just take it as another learning journey. Just like what I did last sem when we ended up with 4 members to work on our projects. Really challenging but I think we did really well :) Anyway after getting our groups, I realized.... I WAS SO BLESSED THAT DAY. All my groupmates are people who I get along really well with! I was so happy haha! Azizah, Kenji, Nadiah, Atika, Charmaine, Wenyang! 7 people in a group but I have faith that we can pull through!!

Ok gonna cut this post short, I actually have a meaningful thought to share but I've yet to process it so until then! :)