FINALLY AN UPDATE :))

Assalamualaikum!

FINALLY sparing some time to update! /blows away spiderwebs

Haha!

Life's been busy, so many things to do, so many thoughts in my mind (all either school related or SAO related or SSK4 related).

Okay, for starters, I am on a diet.

Yes yes, me, the food lover, who can't go off a day without snacking something sweet, am on a diet. I'm not so strict, as long as I eat under a determined number of calories, I'm fine with eating snacks and all. But the thing is, after doing it for a week, you just naturally steer away from the oily food because it just doesn't look and taste as appetizing as it used to. Wow.

I'm also exercising, starting small of course. Twice (or thrice if I can spare some time on weekdays) a week, 1 hour of exercise. I like to jump rope haha so I've been doing that. It's actually quite fun really, especially if you have awesome upbeat songs to play while you exercise. If you get sore halfway you can just bounce and jump along to the music (I TOTALLY RECOMMEND JJ PROJECT'S BOUNCE AND BLOCK B'S NILLILI MAMBO TO DANCE TO HAHA)

Don't misunderstand, it's not because of peer pressure or anything and I do actually get a lot of teasing comments how I'll get fat if I continue eating like how I usually do. I get it A LOT. I'd be lying if I say I didn't take some to heart but me taking this initiative to be on a diet is totally unrelated.

SO WHY AM I DIETING???

No, I'm not overweight =_= I've never been overweight okay.

There's only one reason. NAPFA.

We were told that we are going to be forced to take NAPFA in Y3S2 next year and it totally freaked me out. Because the seniors were told the bombshell too and they were super shocked. And for me, someone who has been in a private school all my life, who has never taken NAPFA before.... Culture shock man.

So yeah, that's all.

Some other updates, I don't think I blogged about this but I went for a minor surgery to remove a cyst on my face roflmao costed A LOT. I think the amount totaled to roughly $600? But it included the ointment to heal the scar on my face as much as possible ah. Plus it's a private dermatologist. And their service was amazing. Very friendly people, the nurse actually held my hand throughout (because my parents went shopping while this was happening =_=) and we chatted normally while waiting for the wound to stop bleeding. And they were really considerate about me wearing tudung, saying it's okay if I still want to use my serkop (inner scarf), and carefully putting my tudung on a bed before I went for the surgery. Yeah. Super nice!

Some more updates, hmm. School? Yeah projects are driving me crazy. Number one because of our main module, Public Education and Communications. Where we have to plan a programme and execute it as a whole class. It's really tiring and requires a lot of creative thinking eg how to publicize, what to do for the programme etc. I chose to be in the programme group, planning the things to do for the whole event. It's been okay though only I really feel the pressure. Really scared it won't be successful. Because right now, the way I see it, everything is just... incomplete. Not satisfying. But there's only so much I can do to make things right so I'm just leaving the rest to those who are responsible for it in the meantime.

Number two is the normal projects. 3 other modules. Our group has only 4 people (because one of my groupmates is actually taking a break from school because of some issues) so the burden is huge. So many things to do. Other groups have 5/6 members and we only have 4. Trying to do my best to make up for it but yeah. Still holding on. This semester, group projects aren't as fun as they used to be. School isn't fun at all like this OTL

Attachment next semester really isn't making school any better either.

Oh well. Just really trying my best and leaving the rest up to Allah. If I do my best, and I know that I did my best, that's enough isn't it? It's the things that I gain during the journey that matter, not the results. Because in the end, life is only temporary and the thing that really matters is how hard you've worked for the afterlife, because THERE. THEN you'll be able to bask in the wonderfulness of Allah's creations because you know that you've worked hard for it, and you deserve it.

Okay so there's something that I thought of suddenly while talking to a friend of mine.

Would a guy be jealous if his gf had many guy friends? Or,
Would a girl be jealous if his bf had many girl friends?

Okay not necessarily many friends of the opposite sex, maybe even just one close friend that's of the opposite sex.

I don't know if I'm just really rational in relationships or I'm just oblivious to these kind of stuff because I've never been in a relationship but... I don't care. Why?

Think of it this way, if they have been friends for a long time, or maybe they're just naturally good friends it means that they, at some point rely on each other. For comfort, companionship, fun etc. It's what makes a friendship, a friendship you see. You can't be friends with someone if you don't feel comfortable with them. And I'm talking about the deep kind of friendship okay not those oh-im-your-classmate-thus-im-your-friend kind of thing.

So, if you think of it rationally, do you even have the right to interfere when for example the girl has a problem and relies on the guy for help, because they are friends. Friendships are really sacred in that way, in my opinion. You can't get in the way of friends even if you're the guy's girlfriend. You're not his wife. If you are then that's a totally different thing. But you guys aren't even tied officially, so who are you to restrict him from helping someone he cares about?

I'm not totally ignoring the feelings that might be involved in this process. It's natural to feel jealous. It's natural to feel angry. I'm not saying you shouldn't feel those emotions, it's part and parcel of being in a relationship. But to not approve or to kick up a big fuss about it is just, in my opinion, RIDICULOUS.

And, if you're confident that your gf really likes you, then there shouldn't be a problem there would it? Relationship is all about trust. No matter what crap rumors you hear or whatever people tell you, you should trust your partner. No matter how painful the process might be. Because that's what keeps a relationship going strong. It might be really torturous but it's pointless if you keep it all in instead of telling your partner how you feel because it won't help with anything. It's like a ticking bomb. You end up keeping it all inside and one day, EVERYTHING will burst and ruin everything that you've worked for. It will destroy a relationship.

Just my 2 cents about this issue haha I think I should become a marriage therapist or something HAHA. I tend to be very rational about relationship issues. But god knows how I will fair when I myself am in a relationship.

Alright then, that's the end of a long post to make up for the spiderwebs in this blog haha! Jiayou to those having exams! Press on! Mine isn't until Feb hehe still can not revise at home hehehe. Ok bye!